This is My God

Hardened

Bitter

Growing Resentment

I feel the draining cycle.

When my human nature decides to rebel against God.

Stop talking to Him,  taking Him seriously. Get Noise to fill that quiet space

Then I start to reject

I know He knows better than me

But I start to be selfish

I’m blessed more than I can understand

But yet, still I rebel

I sink further and further

I feel... I hear God calling me

Yet I refuse to rise to it.

I do the work... I reach out to others who need me

But I start to disbelieve

Sinking into depression, despair and sorrow.

I start to reject

I start to go back to who I was before,

before I met God intimately.

I stop reading the word, reject the devotionals

With cynical mind

I think oh I’ve heard it all before

What more can you say to me now.

But I forget, the Word of God is like food,

Nourishment to my spirit.

My source of peace.

I realise I’m angry, I’m numb and I’m cold

I feel empty.

I feel locked out of my head and feel locked in at the same time.

I still hear Him trying to break down the walls I’ve built up

I feel Him there… saying just let me take the pain

I still don’t accept it.

Until I can’t handle it anymore..

Then I break down..

With shame I return to God.

I don’t know what to say.. He’s perfect

I’m not

My heart and flesh has failed me

But He’s the answer to my soul.

With Him, I can say it is well..

Jesus Has overcome. The Victory Is Won

I know this…

But I need my heart to understand this properly.

I need my flesh to submit to this.

I need to rise out of the despair and the sorrow

I have drenched myself in.

I have to rise on the Eagle wings He has promised me in Isaiah

I need to rise into the presence of God

And Fall before him....On my knees

And beg for forgiveness.

Like the prodigal son He welcomes me Home.

My Soul fills slowly with Joy and Peace

I wonder why did I leave here in the first place

I took my eyes of God, and like Peter

I sink in the storm of Life

His Grace is more than enough

More than I need

His Word I will believe

His Spirit made Me New again.

He lit the way

By The power of His word

I am redeemed,

I am restored.

Because by His Grace

I rose because He called my name..

And I will fall at his feet.

Simply because He Freely gave it all for us.

Surrendered His Life upon that Cross.

Great Is the Love

Poured out for me.

This is My God and I will Worship Him there. 

The 90/10 and the 10/10/10 Rules

Hiyah Guys! 


So i've been putting the above numbers up in my status and my BBM statuses, got a couple of people wondering what they are... 


So in order to explain what they are... i shall give the explanations below. 


Well to be fair these are rules i live by.. like if i forget anything else.. I must not under any circumstances break them or forget them otherwise i'm pretty sure all hell will break lose. 


I tend to be someone who gets really angry (a lot of people will not believe this) well the reason why i can be seemingly patient or calm is not because i don't have a quick or irritable temper, but because I do my best to think through it and try and act as rationally as possible. I use it for school work, relationships, family, friendship, and relations with people in general.. 


I just got to know bout the 10/10/10 rules this year as i got it as a book from my mum last christmas but will basically summarise it. 


it's quite long, but very useful i believe... so here goes 


90/10 Rule Explanation 

10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane may be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the
other 90%!

How? By your reaction. You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you, YOU can control how you react!

Let's use an example. You're eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup
of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened. What happens next will be determined by how you react. You curse. 

You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the coffee cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your wife and criticize her for placing the cup to close to the edge of the table. An exchange of verbal abuse follows. You storm upstairs and angrily change your shirt. Back downstairs you find your daughter has been too busy crying in hurt to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. 

Your wife leaves immediately for work, upset and angry.

You rush to the car and drive your daughter to
school. Because you are late, you furiously drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15 minute delay and throwing $60 (traffic fine) away, you
arrive at school. Your daughter runs to the building without saying good-bye.

After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to going home. When you arrive home you find damage and hurt in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.

Why? All because of how you chose to react in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the Policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The honest answer of course, is D. You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds, which was entirely under your control, is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened. Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is feeling apologetic and sorry. You gently say with a smile, "It's OK honey, I know you didn't mean it."

Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase. You come back down in time look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You and your spouse kiss before you both go to work. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good of day you are having.

Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different. Why? Because of how you CHOOSE to react. You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% is determined by your own free will.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 secret. If someone says something negative about you, let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out, ruining relationships, etc.

How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you loose your temper? Pound the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off!) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them? Who cares if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the blue car ruin your drive. Remember the 90-10 principle, and do not worry
about it!

You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep or get irritated? It will work out. Use your "worrying" energy and time into finding another job.

The plane is late. It is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over
what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger, etc. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

You now know the 90-10 secret.

The 10/10/10 Rule as pioneered by Suzy Welch 

incredibly helpful in making decisions though sometimes i find it hard to use... 

Here's how it works. Every time I find myself in a situation where there appears to be no solution that will make everyone happy, I ask myself three questions: 

What are the consequences of my decision in 10 minutes? 

In 10 months? 

And in 10 years? 

The answers usually tell me what I need to know not only to make the most reasoned move but to explain my choice to the family members, friends, or coworkers who will feel its impact. 

Example: 

The second time I used 10-10-10, the ante was higher. I'd been asked to run a Saturday meeting for the company's executives--a big deal in terms of exposure. Unfortunately, the meeting fell on the same day my son went for his junior black belt in karate, a test that was four grueling years in the making. 

Again, I ran through the time frames. 

In 10 minutes, both choices stank. My son would be devastated. I could picture his sweet face all screwed up and turning pink as he fought back tears; he was the kind of kid who got sad, not mad. My boss obviously wouldn't cry, but her disappointment would surely be palpable. 

In 10 months, I figured, the pain would be buried. Why? Because I would shovel frantically to make it so. If I attended the off-site, I would love my son extravagantly in the months that followed, spoil him with my attention, and apologize until he could stand it no more. If I didn't go, I would pull the same kind of performance at work, with my boss at the receiving end. 

But 10 years ... there was the problem. My kids would be gone and my career at full-throttle, whether I had gotten one promotion or not. But on some visceral level, my son would still know that I had chosen to miss one of the seminal events of his life for my own advancement. 

That was damage I could never undo. 

So I skipped the off-site. And late that Saturday afternoon, I cheered as my son received his black belt, his face pink as he tried to hold back tears.

Source: http://www.welchway.com/O-Magazine-Columns/The-Rule-of-10-10-10.aspx

Random Thoughts 21/02/2010

#NowPlaying This is our God - Hillsongs United.

So.. I wanted to write... just write something.. so whatever.

Fashion:

So I was going through this girl's blog Mild and Meek abi Meek and Mild... i don't know again... I have to rate the babe... you can feel the passion radiating off her blog... She loves her makeup/hair/dressing and to be fair gave me an idea of what to do with my wardrobe and stuff like that..

I think I need to take fashion/makeup a little bit more seriously now. I like it, it's fascinating. but I shall leave the obsession to the pros which is EXPENSIVE (time wise mostly and financially as well)..i don't take life that seriously lol..  However . I love love it when people put together a combination and it just works.... (not neccesarily expensive stuff)  and I'm not one to put together a lot of things.. very basic when it comes to my dressings and accessories.
For example I've got quite a few wristwatches.. that I love.. especially  the very beautiful one I got at christmas.. but babe like me.. I cannot for the life of me figure out how to work the latch. YES IT IS THAT COMPLICATED!!!! okay maybe not.. I tend not to wear it out or places i might be walking to or doing a lot fo walking, cos I'm so terrified that it will fall off because I haven't latched it properly...
but since i got my reasonable watch from my aunt some years back for my birthday.. I still wear that watch till tomorrow and I always forget to take a change of watch in case I'm going somewhere nice.. -_-

anyways so yeah back to fashion.. I need to find my niche.. i'm good with colours, (i think) but fashion has advanced so much, whilst I was stuck with the undergrad that was school.. I kind of feel lost and not sure what works for me anymore. So but with the Meek and Mild, blog I've found some inspirations and some stuff I shall invest in.... So i shall let you know how the next couple of days goes. Providing i'm not too lazy and get stuck in my basic jeggings and normal top. For this to work I really need to chuck these pair of Levi Jeans which make me look so dressed down, but are the most comfortable jeans i've owned in my life.. cos they are a size big for me.  Just throw them on, when I have deadlines or  occasional I'm waking up when my lecture is starting and babes have to run #don'tjudgeme

School
Please don't get me started on this school business.. I am very happy i'm in school don't get me wrong.. I mean there are people who would LOVE to be inschool and the qualifications i'm getting with this PG i'm doing.. it's a bargain, and in the long run I shall be grateful.. buuuttt..... lets just say babes are not smiling right now. but God is in control... #thatisall

God..
Lol.. my Jesus and my God.. has been bunz to me as ever.. so lovellyyy a relationship... gave me a little surprise during the week.. or make that two.. :-D don't know.. we shall see how it all turns out.. any-ways.. so I went to BCC (my church) this morning and this song was basically our song for the sunday.. the now playing song that is.. it's really beautiful.. Freely He gave His Love for us.. This is our God...

Sidebar: May I just mention that Hillsong United has been incredibly crucial and instrumental in my relationship with God.. they make me feel close to God.... like unbelievable.. they are God-sent. #shoutout to Sam Dichinero for introducing me to Hillsong United. Sometimes i'm not good with expressing how I feel, and I have to find the right song to express how I feel.. but Hillsongs.. i don't even know how to explain how I feel. The love flows...  the two songs that make me feel especially close to God are these two songs.. You Hold Me Now then Arms Open Wide.. (in that order and together on their album (Across The Earth)

Anyways.. So My mantra for the week... Lord I Owe It all to you!

Kally xXx

Control Your Anger...

My Beloved,


A professor was teaching about anger; he asked his students, "Why do we shout in anger?  Why do people shout at each other when they are upset? The students thought for a while.  One of them said, we shout because we lose our calm. "But why shout when the other person is just next to you?" asked the professor.  "Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you are angry?" The students gave some other answers but none satisfied the professor. Finally he explained, "When two people are angry at each other, their hearts psychologically distance themselves.  To cover the distance, they must shout to be able to hear each other.  The angrier they are, the stronger they will shout to hear each other through that great distance. Then the professor asked, "What happens when two people fall in love?  They don't shout at each other but talk softly, why?  It is because their hearts are psychologically knitted.  The distance between them is very short.  The professor continued, "And when they love each other even more, what happens?  They do not speak, only whisper and they even get even closer to each other in their love.  Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all....


So next time you shout at a loved one or a colleague, know that you are creating distance between your heart and that person's heart. The true test of growth in your life is not always found in what you say, but in what you choose NOT to say.  Even though you might have every "right" to respond harshly to someone who has wronged or offended you (personally or professionally), remember the big picture and this whole story.  How many times have you been spared in spite of your mistakes and imperfections?  Grace enabled us to see each day. 


Reflect on that and don't take things for granted in your life.  In appreciation for all that you have been given, choose to give up your right to hold an offense or debt against others.  Your capacity to thrive and the grandeur of your life's legacy will be a direct reflection of your ability to forgive and forget. "Smart people know how to hold their tongue; their grandeur is to forgive and forget".




Also an excerpt from one of my devotionals speaks about anger. 

Control Your Anger

'A quick-tempered man acts foolishly...' Proverbs 14:17

It's normal to get angry, but uncontrolled anger can cost you dearly. When Nabal refused to feed King David and his soldiers, David's anger almost drove him to murder. Only Abigail, Nabal's wife, saved David from the destructive potential of his own unchecked emotions. Looking back, David told Abigail, '..."Blessed is your advice... because you have kept me this day from coming to bloodshed"...' (1 Samuel 25:33 NKJV). Our anger is often rooted in pride. Naaman the leper felt insulted when Elisha told him to dip seven times in the muddy Jordan River. '...Naaman became furious, and went away and said, "Indeed," I said to myself, "He will surely come out to me, and stand and call on the name of the Lord his God, and wave his hand over the place, and heal the leprosy"' (2 Kings 5:11 NKJV). The Arizona Republic, a USA newspaper, reported that when Steve Tran of Westminster, California, closed the door on 25 activated bug bombs, he thought he had seen the last of the cockroaches that shared his apartment. But when the spray reached the pilot light of the stove, it ignited, blasting his screen door across the street, breaking all his windows and setting his furniture ablaze. 'I wanted to kill all of them,' he said. 'I thought if I used a lot more, it would last longer.' According to the label, just two canisters of the pesticide would have solved Tran's roach problem. The blast caused over 10,000 dollars damage to the apartment building. And the cockroaches? Tran reported, 'By Sunday, I saw them walking around.' Yes, 'A quick-tempered man acts foolishly'. (Source Word for Today, 18th of February 2011) Hope this blesses you With Love Kally xXx

The Meaning of Love - As Told by 4-8 year olds!

Since a very long time ago, people have searched for the meaning of love. But even the great philosophers, with their profound definitions, could not fully touch its true essence. In a survey of 4-8 year olds, kids share their views on love. But what do little kids know about love? Read on and be surprised that despite their young and innocent minds, kids already have a simple but deep grasp of that four-letter word.

"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

"When someone loves you, the way she says your name is different. You know that your name is safe in her mouth."

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings."

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss but they look happy and sometimes they dance in the kitchen while kissing."

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared she won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only does she still love you, she loves you even more."

"There are 2 kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they've know each other so well."

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

"Love is-if you hold hands and sit beside each other in the cafeteria. That means you're in love. Otherwise, you can sit across from each other and be okay."

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."

"Don't feel so bad if you don't have a boyfriend. There's lots of stuff you can do without one."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

"If you want somebody to love you, then just be yourself. Some people try to act like somebody else, somebody the boy likes better. I think the boy isn't being very good if he does this to you and you should just find a nicer boy."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day"

"When you're born and see your mommy for the first time.

"Love is what makes people hide in the dark corners of movie theaters."

"Love goes on even when you stop breathing and you pick up where you left off when you reach heaven."

"My enemies taught me how to love."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

"You have to fall in love before you get married. Then when you're married, you just sit around and read books together."

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."

"Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."

"You never have to be lonely. There's always somebody to love, even if it's just a squirrel or a kitten."

"You can break love, but it won't die."

With Love

Happy Valentines 

Kally

Will You Marry Me?.... #Understatement

I saw this somewhere a while ago.. and thought I should share with you guys.. it's one of the most beautiful stories I've come across.. and no doubt encouraging for everyone out there.. :-)

it's REAALLLYYY longg... (even by my standards) but it was definitely worth the read in my opinion. 

Be blessed and enjoy as you read ... 

with love 

Kally 

Dinner table all set, The knives are on the right, the forks on the left ,the spoons are set to the right of the knives ( the melon one and the soup one) Glasses are set above the plate to the right in order of course, the water ,the wine and the flute. The dress code on point ,the flowers are to the left of the table so I can see her face clearly, the cutlery is polished its only been 8 weeks I’ve been wondering how to make her my wife but tonight is the night I finally ask. I’ve loved her since we met and the road has been long.

She’ll be hear in an hour and I’ve changed ma shirt 4 times already.. The food is ready. (Thank God for moms hey)

I walk around the studio flat to make sure no socks are on the floor , no underwear like most days is hanging of the radiator .. I glance at the ps3 and think no not tonight gotta prepare my self ..


I begin to think but not too much as each time in the last 8 weeks I’ve chickened out.. we met in the oddest of situations and I knew I loved her but even that took a while . She adores me and I her ,I have all I need in a wife .. it been an amazing 2 going on 3 years .

As I sit there loads of this come into my mind
... It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him" (Genesis 2:18 KJV).First so I know I’m meant to be with someone.. I have prayed about this woman and even thru ma human doubts I know my fears are unfounded God is bigger than them all

As I think one last check God is she the one ‘ Now the Lord God said, It is not good (sufficient, satisfactory) that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper meet (suitable, adapted, completing) for him" (Genesis 2:18 Amplified).’

Enters my mind and she is. She adds to me emotionally and spiritually.. Physically it’s taken some prayer and loads of grace to contain myself. The woman was made for me

Okay so 30 mins had gone already and I began to pray for wisdom favor and all I had found my wife with His guidance so I was not going at this one alone . .

Ten mins before she was due to arrive I had to change my shirt again .. I was sweating so much. The phone rings and she says “ hey baby” and ma world spins “ I’m on ma way ma sis is running late I’ll see you in 15 mins “

I catch ma breath and think okay food check, ring check ( it a tiny white gold band with a small stone diamond and sapphire swirl just as she described it cost me not much but I had to get that exact one .. ) so ring ,food , water , drinks the green shloer ( I need to remember that name lol ) okay I have to calm down what am I forgetting so I reach into my jackect pocket and get ma list ..

I look at it
God check
Dressed check
Perfume check
Food check
Drink check
Ring check
Mints check

And at the bottom

What will you ask ?


My head started to spin … what was I gonna say .. will you marry me ?????? huh what kind of question is that ..

The word marry could not carry what I was intending to ask her..


I wanted to ask her to share with me in the journey that is my life , to glorify God with our marriage and to ask her to lift me when I become weak , to ask her to support my vision , to ask her to endure the tough times ahead because she loved me , I was gonna ask her to let me love her even with nothing to my name but my hope and faith in God .
I wanted to tell her I couldn’t afford much hence the home cooked meal.. But all I had would be to love God and her and in that order.
I wanted to ask her to be my best friend, my lover my, boss lady my companion, my counselor, my all .. I wanted to ask her to love me even on the days I was annoying.. I wanted to ask her to embrace ma family and love them like I do . I was about to ask her to bear my name and all that it is and to eventually bear my seed

I wanted to ask her to be my world.. to keep me before My King in service as that is where I am my best .. .. I need to ask that she live with me and tolerate my habits and train me to be a better man

I wanted to ask her to let me lead even when I seemed un sure..
I was about to ask for her lifetime investment in me to never end. So what kind of question is will you marry me..


Its 5 mins to go I am on ma knees and I remember He has gone before me and I am about to come into favour the door bell rings I get up from the floor wipe ma face and walk calmly towards the door … I grab ma swagger and composure on the way open the door with a smile and say “ my queen you are welcome ” .. she walk in and i begin to breathe .... TBC

it not just a question one uses every day it a stepping stone into destiny ...

She looks overly beautiful today although she has just worked a double shift. With school and work I really don’t know how she does it.. I just wanna carry her around breathe for her to all I can but I quickly bring ma self back to the room and ignore ma thought .. she smiled and ma heart leaps she walks into the living room sees the table and her face glows ..


“lilies baby aww” and she hugs me now ma heart is busting out of ma chest every time she is around I’m at peace she doesn’t have to try . She sashays to the table.. I watch her closely I pull out her chair and as she sits down. I can smell her perfume.. My knees buckle and I rush to sit down.. Wow I think the scent of a Queen.. We get into dinner I watch her, I look forward to the little portions and the small bites . I watch her as she tells me about her day..


She moves her head to the side, smiles and she sighs my heart is won over and over .. I see so far into the future I wanna get there now.. I see her walk down the isle I see her introducing me to our first son in the delivery room, I see her cry when he goes to school, I see her open the surprise gifts I will get, I see us 40 yrs on and I get on ma knees and say “baby thank yu “


I barely hear her account of the day.. On to desert I just watch her I think “God ,of all the men in the world she loves me enough to sit here and eat with me .. she loves me enough to let me dream ,, I sit there in awe that God would give me such wonderful woman ..i don’t deserve it but i will hold on to her .. Cherish her and never let her go


So we finish dinner and we start on the dishes she notices I’m all dressed up … she smiled and I twirl. As we do the dishes I tell her she means a lot to me .. she tells me she is blessed and she would not have it any other way .. We sit down to talk like we always do.. I bring her close and I feel her melt in ma arms.. I feel like the man she sees in me. I tell her how happy she makes me and how I appreciate her patience and love.


I kneel before her as we talk and she looks straight at me.. She tells me how I complete her and how she appreciates me .. The more she talks the less I hear all that in ma head is “GOD SHE LOVES ME SIMPLE ME “


I finally say a last prayer and I put ma hand on hers I say “baby girl listen , (she tilts her head to the side and slightly raises her eyebrows I know she is listening ),,
You know I love u , I tell you I show you , I even pray it .
You are my perfect girl , from the day we met we’ve come through the odds but with each day you become more and more beautiful in side and outside ..
you make my heart race and stop all at the same time
when you're not around nothing good feels as good
when you smile, you light up my insides
when we pray I know we turn things around
your passion and heart bless me and glorify my Father .. your destiny is amazing


Physically shawty u more that a ten .. they don’t come any better .. ( I smile and compose ma self )for u to look at me the way your do lets this little boy know He is indeed a King with you by his side .. baby you only have to wake up and i'm willing to do the rest .


she smiles while the tears fall .. I think "oh no" but The Holy Spirit says ask
so I reach in ma pocket and I bring out her ring she freezes and I say to her


“Baby will you do me the honour of bearing my name , my all, my seed, my destiny and even my possibilities “




The room is silent and I’m waiting … 30 secs sounds is like eternity .. she comes back to life and sighs now I’m getting scared


She wipes her face and says “baby no “ I don’t have time to react and she kneels with me and says it would be an honor for me to bear your name , your all , your seed your destiny and even your possibility .. That kind of privilege …. And tears just stream down her face


I’m stunned this women with all she is ,thinks I’m honoring her hold up .. we hold hands and began to pray .. After we pray she looks at and says “ may I honor you by saying yes “ I have never jumped this high ..


I put the ring on her finger and she marvels at it for the next hour and I just go round the house praising God and phoning anyone who would pick up..




Now I know you all thinking aww but it took prayer and discipline the challenges brought about when two souls try and become one can make or break them .. There is no time to focus on the physical.. God first. But that does not mean you don’t do anything else ..


Pray together , pray for each other ,, get to know one another its not enough being nice to each other ,.. you can’t say well we never get mad please, you are made in the image of God to two who got angry the most in the bible where God and Jesus . Its about teaching each other how to handle each other ..


Relationships don’t need to be miserable.. If its causing you pain take it to God He will fix it and tell you how to.. Love withers all storms and true love doesn’t just walk away true love is rooted in God from Him we know how to love.. 1 Corinthians 13 we all sing it but really study it .


You would go into an exam with out studying, so study read the word ... its the final authority what does it say find out what Christian authors say about courtship and marriage.. Don’t depend on what others think it the rest of your life so invest in it .. Here is some where for you to start


http://www.pastormusa.com/

there is a reason our pastors are invested in us ..


Peace and love stay connected .. Love deep, love true love strong and Love God first and the rest will be your testimony ..
Heres to a life time of joy and amazing relationships..


remember Marriage is only the beginning i'll soon write on being married and staying married the book you forgot to read ..


stay blessed stay connected ..

God first , you can't fail .. i guarantee it

Nigeria... Where Is Your Humanity...( iConfuse)

The other day, I got a link on FB, something about the most recent occurrence in Jos, inboxed me by a friend  a link As hardcore as I can be, I couldn’t bring myself to play the videos I saw on the link, The pictures  alone spoke a thousand words…

Jos’ situation came to light to Nigerians in Diaspora and at home  when (unconfirmed jist) a bunch of Muslims raided a village in Jos which is supposedly Christian, and massacred them in the most inhuman way possible. Massacred them in such a way that it was only fit for an R18 movie..  

If you think Hotel Rwanda (the movie) was bad… uh uh.. you ain’t seen nothing child… THIS was the deepest.. The one that occurred last year.  I can’t remember the exact month. It was horrible.. the nation was outraged.. Pictures started going up, on facebook, blackberry messenger, there was outrage on Twitter with trending topics such as #stoptheviolenceinJos amongst several others.

So in my mind after a couple of months… I thought the government had done something about it as per you know actually listening to its citizens and intervene in the situation.. and Plateau state governor, whatever his name is, said something had been done and curfews had been posted and some other yanz. But I forgot one crucial thing..

THIS IS NIGERIA! POLITICIANS LIE!!!!  Oh how naïve I was… KMT

So sha, forward a couple of months later.. I see a couple of statuses go up on BBM and pictures about JOS I was like “hold on, I thought this had been rectified or brought under control at least”.  I asked I asked around, and just a couple of whispers, nothing serious, and there was some other yanz about how they were using religion to cover up the happenings, but I didn’t hear anything serious, so I just thought oh okay, this is just small small issue. And besides with the school work I have. I don’t go looking for the news. I have the mind set that “if it’s important enough, I’ll hear about it”

UNTIL!

I got that link.

I was shocked..

Then I blanked out, scrolled down, reading all the information.

Then I laughed (when I laugh it’s not always funny by the way.. it’s more of I don’t know what other reaction to give)

Then I saw the pictures, I dropped my laptop, continued what I was doing. ( I think I was watching Friends on E4, btw they reaaaalllyyyy need to stop the re-runs though)

Then It sank in.. I was maaaddddd… like seriously???? Are these people serious??!?!?!?!

I couldn’t even play the videos

I MEAN DID YOU SEE THE PICTURES?!?!?!!

How is this not front page news in Nigeria?!?!? I mean seriously?!?! 

I mean realllyyyy how far is Jos from Abuja.. I’m pretty sure the last time I checked the map it wasn’t that far.. hold on.. *Checking google maps*  yep..  just a state separating Jos and Abuja…

Forget the fact that it happened for a second.. I’m sorry but is Nigeria’s media censored now?!?!  How is this not Front page news?!?!  I mean that something like this could happen and it’s not on CNN or SKY or at least somewhere prominent..

I mean these pictures were bad bad… like call Obama in for questioning in front of Supreme Court BAD!!

How is JONATHAN still president?!?!

WHERE IS the UN!?!?!

ARE THESE PEOPLE SERIOUSSSS!!!!!

I mean … did you see the pictures?!?!?!

*Okay I breathe…*

I don’t understand, how are the elections still important over this horrific massacre?? I mean I’m pretty sure Hitler’s methods of killing the Jews were less horrific than this.. surely! They were gassed or shot (with no offense to Holocaust victims or Jews) – I did history at some point. I’m not trying to justify Hitler, but surely something more horrific than that should raise a few eyebrows. I mean macheted body parts  of kids that the intestines are falling out kind of death

My goodness!!....  

I honestly don’t understand.. WHAT IS WRONG WITH NIGERIA!!!

Is this until something like this happens in Lagos or Abuja or Port-Harcourt that these people will sit up?!?!

I don’t know again oh.. what kind of inhumane leaders do we have if they can sit back and do nothing about it.. and consider elections more important.. please if any  public statement has been made about it, can someone please inform me?!?!

How has Jonathan not issued a public statement about this?!?! We are only 36 states for goodness sake..

Infact why is Jonathan still going for president anyway.. This is the same president who in 3 short years, has Boko Haram bombings, Niger Delta kidnappings becoming a norm, and Jos under his rulings?? Doesn’t that say anything about him?!?! I mean I cant criticise, cos honestly I don’t know the first thing about politics, but SURELY!!! This must say something about the kind of president we have who can sit back and allow this kind of thing to happen?!?!?!

But Jos..

I can’t shout, biko nu… All I can do now is pray for these unfortunate souls, that they knew God before they died, and they rest in peace, and help the survivors cope with the post trauma of this. God is the defender of the weak. And People, please don’t think for one second you are better than these individuals. It’s just the grace of God. Please if you can do something.. Do it but at the bare minimum, pray that God has mercy on them.  If there’s anyone who knows how I can help.. please  please please let me know…. 419 (Fraudsters and Scammers)  need not apply, I will just call God’s vengeance on you oh! ,. “So are oh!” (be careful o) )

 I don’t know what to say that cannot be said in a better ways by others 

But, I have three questions…

Is this Nigeria?

And the ultimate questions of the year…

Nigeria… Where is your humanity? and Nigeria... Where are you Going? 

May Nigeria not breakdown into a war-torn country in Jesus Name... 

Adios


p.s


okay after been advised by Walter O and with his permission 
i hereby post the link 


please open this link at your own discretion.. and please note I will NOT be held liable for any damages to your sensibilities. you are on your own oh! :P


http://www.streetnaij.com/2010/04/05/see-no-evil-hear-no-evilviewer-discretion-is-advised/